This is quite weird because this is something I should have written before the year ends but I think its just fitting I write it today. I mean, what better way to start the year than to reflect on what you have accomplished the previous year and start composing your targets for the year to come, right? 🙂 So anyway, I keep on thinking how I have generalized my 2017 as a year of emotional instabilities. Probably just the jitters of midlife crisis. But it has been, and yet more than those instabilities was a year of unlocked achievements. I got too emotional, my feelings blinding my memory because I fail to see the great things I’ve accomplished this year and failed God to acknowledge it and by writing this, even though its too late, I know He understands me. So anyway, yeah. Accomplishments. I realized I should be really thankful for a lot of things. First, I finally have an MBA Degree. It wasn’t easy and if not for my mom I wouldn’t have succeeded. Second, I passed the A2 and B1 exam for the German Language thus earning lots of privileges. Third, I got transferred to another ream with a totally different process and although there were lot of skeptics and criticisms, I was very grateful for the opportunity. There are a lot more little accomplishments but that would take a me a lot of pages that you won’t probably have time to read it so I’ll just skip it anyway. Hahaha. I also experienced a lot of good things. I’ve gotten to know a lot of great people. I knew myself better. With criticisms I have been receiving for the last 365 days, I got to understand myself more. I’ve learned a lot of lessons. And so much more. Yes, it was emotional because I’ve somehow lost someone for a while this year, things have been pretty awkward and that person knows that. I had some arguments with somebody which rocked the relationship that we have. I “fell in love” with someone and I thought it was real. (But seriously it was all gone and fine now. I realize I was just fantasizing and admitting it to someone I respect dearly made me wake up from that madness.) I have made quite a few discoveries which somehow affected the way I saw circumstances and events. I committed a lot of mistakes, broken promised and betrayed trusts that it ate me up for quite some time too. All of these led me to a single realization that I am growing up. I am undergoing a phase. It might have been a little bit late for me. But I believe all of us have our own timelines. I remember telling myself something like this. Its hard to accept that you’re wrong. But its even harder to accept the facf that you’re somebody who has a difficulty of accepting that they’re wrong. What I’m trying to say is, it was hard for me to accept that I’m undergoing a phase. And by undergoing I mean that I had to see the worst part of myself. But I know that now. I had to go thru all of that in 2017 so I am better equipped for 2018.